♥ Chubby SuperStar ♥

♥ Nor Melati , Superwoman ? ♥
♥ Photography is my life.♥
♥ I love taking pictures as much as how you love visiting my blog.♥
♥ The film in my camera doesn't seem to end.♥
♥ it just keeps on going and going and going.♥
♥ you get the idea. The camera of mine is amazing!♥
♥ It captures every moment of my life, every moment of the world.♥
♥ I own a awesomely cool photo album which tells you my life story!♥
♥ I would love to show you! But at this moment, let's stick to reading my online diary :]♥

Thursday, 27 January 2011

killing me softly..

NEUROFIBROMATOSIS TYPE 2


What is Neurofibromatosis?

Neurofibromatosis (NF), also known as von Recklinghausen disease, is a genetic disorder that can affect many organs in the body, especially the skin and the nervous system.  Some of the features may be present at birth, but others do not appear for many years.  There are three forms of Neurofibromatosis:  NF1NF2 and Schwannomatosis.  

Neurofibromatosis type II

Neurofibromatosis 2 (NF2) also called Bilateral Acoustic Neurofibromatosis makes up 10% of all cases of NF with an incidence of 1/50,000.  Tumors on the nerves going to the ears, usually on both sides, are characteristic.  People with NF2 may also have other lesions and tumors in the brain and spinal cord.  The majority of cases of NF2 result from a gene mutation—a new change not seen in other family members.


Difference with other Acoustic Neuromas

Acoustic Neuromas grow differently for NF2 patients as opposed to other AN patients, making treatment more challenging:
  • In NF2, tumors grow faster and more agressively. If even one cell is left behind then it has the potential to regrow.
  • In NF2 the Acoustic Neuroma (AN) tends to infiltrate the nerves, as opposed to being adjacent to and pressing on the nerves as in regular AN cases. They are therefore more difficult to surgically remove without sacrificing the nerve(s) altogether.
  • NF2 AN’s are also less uniform in shape and may be nodular with bumps or tentacles protruding. This again makes treatment, be it surgery or Gamma Knife more difficult.
What are some of the possible complications of NF2?
  • Hearing loss
  • Facial weakness
  • Headaches
  • Unsteadiness
  • Cloudiness of the lens in the eye (called posterior subcapsular lens opacities) are seen in 50% of people with NF2
  • Tumors on the nerves or in the brain


What is the management for Neurofibromatosis-2?

There is no cure for NF2.
 but you can minimize the complications.

Wednesday, 26 January 2011

26/2/2011..

1 Month to go until my...


2nd ANNIVERSARY..
XOXO honey !!


26/2/2011..

1 Month to go until my...


2nd ANNIVERSARY..
XOXO honey !!


Wednesday, 19 January 2011

DYING..

Sedihkan bila kita perlukan orang yg kita sayang..


DIA BOLEH MARAH SAYA DAN TIDO...


sakit sangat..
7 bulan saya tak period..
tetiba hari ni saya period..
dan saya kena menstrual cramp..
saya bgtau dia..
dia marah saya..
saya sakit sangat..
dia buat tak tau je..
saya tau dia penat..
tapi... sakit-sakit saya..
saya masak jugak tuk dia..
saya bukan nak mengungkit..
saya cuma nak dia tlg saya..
saya btl-btl tak larat..
saya jatuh kat toilet masa nak mandi tadi..
sebab sakit sangat..
saya terpaksa bangun sendiri...
KENAPA DIA BUAT TAK TAU ????????
KENAPA DIA BIARKAN SAYA MCM NI ???







LOST .

Kalau darls rasa dia macam Halimunan..
Aku plak rasa macam terbiar..

Hari ni aku sedih dan terasa sangat-sangat..
Aku rasa keseorangan sangat-sangat..
Seolah-olah tiada siapa yg memahami dan menghargai apa yang aku buat..

Aku tak kisah kalau org lain yg buat aku mcm tu tapi yg buat aku sedih bila orang yg aku sayang buat mcm tak endah bila aku mengadu..
Aku cuba bertahan selama mana yg aku mampu.. Tuhan sahaja yg tau betapa aku menahan kesakitan ini..

Sedihkan..
Dahlah Family pun jauh..
Sakit pening pun kena tanggung sendiri..

kdg-kdg aku rasa nak pergi dari semua org..
tp aku tau aku masih ada tanggungjawab yg harus aku pikul..

Disaat aku menulis coretan ini..
air mata tak berhenti mengalir..
terasa segalanya seperti menekan jiwa dan hati aku..
aku cuba kuatkan hati aku..
tapi aku terasa seperti makin hampir ke penghujungnya..

Aku dah tak mampu menahan segala kesakitan ini seorg diri..
tiada siapa tau dan tiada siapa juga ingin peduli...
Mungkin..
disaat aku pergi dari dunia ini..
baru mereka semua akan mengerti betapa aku amat memerlukan mereka selama masih aku bernafas...
credit for : my DAD

Akhirnya Selepas BERBULAN-BULAN tak...

Saya Jadi Perempuan !!!
Sangat la sakittttt pinggang..
Macam nak tercabut semuanya..
So selama saya jadi perempuan ni..
Saya akan duk umah diam-diam..
maklumlah kat LONDON ni toilett terlampau lah canggih sangat sampai rasa tak selesa..

So...
Saya mula MOODY
Saya mula TAK TENTU ARAH
Saya mula SENTAP
Saya mula PENAT
Saya mula TIDO JER
Saya mula SAKIT BADAN
Saya mula CEHNGENG
Akhirnya..
SEMUANYA SBB SAYA JADI "PEREMPUAN"

Sunday, 9 January 2011

Geli-Geli Punya..

Salam..

Don't know where to start..
I'm bored, so bored that I was bored enough to write this...
and if you are reading this I bet your bored to :)
My life here is not as easy as i think before i came here..
I had no idea about this..
I should feel happy coz i have a 
chance to stay & studied here but...
I wish i was little again..
when the hardest choice was picking a crayon.
Oh God..
 Sometimes I wish they wouldn't believe me when i say I'm "ok". I wish they could look into my eyes see the pain, know I'm lying, and say its alright....
I may come across as a stressed, crazy, 
bi-polar maniac. But underneath, stands a strong, intelligent woman who is at a crossroad in my life right now..
and no matter how hard times get, 
i will always keep my head high and continue to be strong because there are people who would kill to see me fall...

I may not yet be who I should be, nor exactly who I could be, not quite who I want to be, but for damn sure, I'm no longer who I used to be.

Sunday, 2 January 2011

Give it to Get it .

You can be a beautiful      . You're only aif you want to be. Any man that calls me a bitch is disturbed. 
The  that know and  me would NEVER ever ever come out their  and use that word to describe me. Women have to  demanding respect or they will NEVER receive it
You are a beautiful lady.


Aku ingin ke Syurga :(




Sentiasa peringatkan diri kita bahawa hari kematian seseorang bukan hari pesta , dimana kita rasa seronok membaca-baca atau mengungkit-ungkit segala aib dan kejahatannya . Mengintai-intai cacat celanya . 
Sehina-hina dan sejahat-jahat manusia jika dia bertaubat nasuha , jika ibu bapa redha dan mengampunkannya , jika Allah redha dan mengampunkannya , jika manusia yg dijahatinya juga redha dan memaafkannya , insyaallah Allah juga akan mengampunkannya.dan meletakkan sesiapa yg dikehendakinya ditempat yg mulia dan sewajarnya .
 Jangan membuang masa menilai dan menghisab orang lain . Nilai dan hisablah diri kita sendiri sbb tiada siapa  yang tau dimanakah tempat kita disana nanti . Jangan berangan-angan untuk menghuni syurga kalau dihati kita masih ada rasa riak sombong pada amalan kita. 
Tempat anda belum terjamin , begitu juga tempat saya belum pasti dimana. Tiada siapa yg layak mengatakan bahawa tempat mereka adalah di syurga .
Semoga Allah mengampuni roh-roh yang telah mendahului kita . Mudah-mudahan jasad mereka akan bersemadi dengan tenang. InsyaAllah.


Saturday, 1 January 2011

OMG!! this is COOL. must read..

The most thoughtful present that can be given to your beloved is a love letter. Your true feelings can be better expressed by putting them down in words. You will be able to speak out those things which you always wanted him/ her to know but were never able to tell in his/her presence. But does the thought of writing a love letter bring back memories of Grade 3 English classes? Fear not, for we bring you 5 best love letter ideas to surprise your beloved. These popular love letter ideas will equip you better to pour your heart out in the traditional style of expressing your love. Read further to get ideas for writing love letters.


  • Make a fantasy tale out of these sweet memories of yours and place it in a location where you are sure your beloved will find it. Do not forget to spray her favorite perfume on it.

Sleeping Beauty by Disney Eau De Toilette Spray 1.6 oz (Women)

  • close your eyes. Take deep breaths. Visualize your beloved. The first time you met. The first time you hung out together. The first time he/she held you close. The first time he/she cried in front of you. Write down what you feel about him/her after being close for a good amount of time. 


  • Humor breaks all barriers. Believe it or not, the same can be applied to love. Yes, write a humorous love letter. But remember, there is a difference between sarcasm and humor. Keep that in mind and you can definitely write a funny love letter.
  • Write a love letter that looks like a things-to-do list. Begin with a sentence like "10 reasons why I love you" and write down your reasons in points. Don't forget to make small hearts in the corners just to make it look a bit different from a real things-to-do list! Stick it on the fridge or some place where your beloved is sure to find it.


  • Write a famous love song and dedicate it to your beloved. You can find lyrics of some romantic songs in our section of romantic songs, or you can write his/her favorite song.


to be continue..

Amina , Naddy , iefiz & Soraya !!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!
MINA , NADDY , IEFIZ, SORAYA !!!

So Sorry tak dapat nak sms .
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Asyik sending failed je .
Wish All of you Best of Luck .
May the New Year bring Blessings, Peace, Harmony and Joy to you and yours. 
Happy Blessed New Year!