Sayangku..

Oh cinta

Kini dirimu ada dimana

Ku sangat merindukanmu

Ku sangat membutuhkan dirimu

Hooo uuoo.. cinta

Ku harap engkau cepat kembali

Jangan engkau pergi lagi

Jangan kau meninggalkan diriku

Sering ku rasa rindu ini menyiksa

Sungguh terasa hidupku kini hampa

Bila kau tak ada disini

Sayangku ingin engkau tahu

Sayangku ingin kau mengerti

Saat ini aku merindukan engkau

Yang jauh yang jauh

Ingin rasanya ku berlari

'tuk membawa engkau kembali

Dipeluk hanya dipelukkanku

Invitation to my anniversary party.

Personalize a free invitation card

Venice oh Venice

VENICE OH VENICE..

Alangkah indahnya 

kalau dapat menyusuri 

sungai Venice

dengan menaiki 

The Vaporetto 

 bersama yang tercinta di waktu 

anniversary yang ke 2 nanti.. 

sambil menikmati panorama yg sangat romantic.. 

Kemudian

menikmati lunch 

Vini Da Gigio 

dan makan malam 

yang sangat romantic

 bertemankan cayaha lampu di

 Grand Canal..

oh bahagianya saat itu..

Mungkinkah mimpi 

ini akan menjadi kenyataan?

Kita nantikan bersama.. ;P

dot dot dot

Rasanya macam dah lama tak update blog ni..

Bukan apa , just mood menulis tu lum sampai plus, buzy sikit this week..

Actually banyak nak dicoretkan..

tapi entahlah macam tak terkeluar plak..

Mungkin bila dah sampai waktunya baru kot..

apapun..

There's no dawn without a night, 

there's no victory without a fight, 

there's no rainbow without the rain, 

there's no happiness without pain!

All about me.

HAQEEM ASHRAFF

You Let Me Be Me

While others tell me I have faults and flaws,
And pick me all apart and criticize,
You love me, sweetheart, just the way I am;
I only see affection in your eyes.

My pesky quirks you only find endearing;
Your perfect mate is what you choose to see;
I love you for a multitude of reasons;
And most of all 'cause you let me be me.

I never have to change to meet your standards;
Acceptance is the greatest gift you give;
I appreciate you for your sweet devotion,
And I’ll love you for as long as we shall live.

FOR MY HONEY ! U'RE MY HEAVEN.

I look deep in your eyes.
I see there what I feel inside.
We share something between us,
Neither one of us can hide.

I feel your lips touch mine,
I loose all my control,
All it took was a look and a kiss,
To know you were part of my soul.

I see your hands on my skin,
I want and need you to do more,
The passionate look you give me,
Tells me heaven is in store.

I feel your need against my thigh,
I know you will fulfill every wish,.
We were made to fit together,
And all it took was a look and a kiss.

I look deep in your eyes,
And I see heaven there inside,
You make me feel so beautiful,
What I feel for you I cannot hide.

FOR MY BABY DARLS !!

A Guided Friendship

You will always be in my heart
Let it be together or apart
We can find our way
Forever in a day
But what would please me the most
Is to just hold you close
As we sit side by side
And talk about old times
I wish for the day
For you to come my way
As I look in your eyes
I can see your cries
I can feel your hurt
I feel your pain
What could have been is in the past
What can be is in our forecast
Brighter days, Happier times
I can see this is yours and mine
We might not see it now
But our hearts will show us how
Finding you again
Has helped me mend
A heart that was broken
And now it has spoken
For I long for your touch
I can say so much
You are there
I am here
It seems unfair
But one thing I can say
Is our friendship is guiding our way

I want to fly

 The night I met you
in words only on a screen
I knew I had to have you
not only in my dreams!
The words that we have shared
have caused my heart to care
At first I was a little frightened
to share myself with you
but you showed me ways to
make my nights brighten
You loved my body over and over again
you took me to heaven and made me live again!
I have come to want to devour you
not just on this place
but I want to touch your body
and feel you near
I want to hold you tightly
not just in words
but face to face:
I want to pleasure you in all the ways we shared,
I want to do things to you that
others would only dare:
I want to make our fantasies
all come true
for, babe, I want to fly with you.

Have I Ever

Have I ever told you that if I sit really still and silent, sometimes. I like to think I can hear your heart beating in time with mine? Have I ever told you that when I watch you speak to me through lines and cords, and bytes and ram, I imagine your voice, whispering into my ear? Have I ever told you that I wait out each day in anticipation, wanting only an hour or two, just a second in space and time, to feel close to you? Have I ever told you that there has been times, when I ached for you, ached for you so badly, that the emotions overwhelmed me.. and so I sat and cried? Have I ever told you that sometimes, I will reach out, touching your name on this cold screen before me, wishing I could reach in and pull you to me? Have I ever told you that after the first time I heard the sound of your voice, thousands of miles away, I sat up all night, turning the conversation over and over in my mind, examining it, like some newly discovered species of flower? Have I ever told you that I would give everything up, just for one night to be able to lay near you, to feel your chest rise and fall with each breath you take, just to know that you are real? Have I ever told you that I dream of you often, I dream of you reaching out and touching my hand, simply to let me know that you are there, and everything is okay? Have I ever told you, have I still yet to tell you . . .  that I love you?

MERAJUK , DIPUJUK & MEMUJUK ,

Jam menunjukkan pukul 11pm..

Hari ni hari yang agak 

tidak menstresskan..

Semua berjalan dgn baik..

Semalam aku 

merajuk dengan sayang..

Hari ni dia pujuk aku..

Kesian kat dia..

tu lah sape suh janji kan..

haha..

Konon2 smlm ckp dgn honey ,

" Honey eby dah tak mau ckp

 ngan sayang tu lagi.. 

eby nak diamkan diri

 dr semua org.. 

nak deactivate Facebook.. "

konon je lah kan..

hahaha as usual 

honey pun jawab 

dengan sarcastic nya..

"Sudahla eby 

honey tak caya eby dah..

 deactivate FB 

tak sampai 5min 

then active semula..

then..

Sayang cuba pujuk aku..

but sakitnya pasal 

aku wat tak tau..

sampai kul 3 ptg td..

barulah aku online..

Kata sayang dia dah sms

aku banyak kali tapi..

aku cuma dapat satu je 

ptg td suh aku on9..

itupun honey yg 

bacakan sms tu 

masa aku duk leka

 godek2 cityville..

Sebenarnya aku

 tak marah pon..

saje je gedik2 manja..

mintak dipujuk..

hahahaha..

Then sebelum sayang

 tido semuanya dah settle..

 ktorang sempat video call n 

sempat lagi honey 

duk bacakan poem 

tuk sayang.. 

Happy je.. 

sebab org yg

 aku sayang ada..

kecuali Baby Darls & am..

Mungkin wifi curik 

tak dapat ditembusi 

oleh baby darls..

Am pulak mungkin

 bz dengan 

Chart-chart currency..

Kalau diorang ada..

makanya lengkap 

la hari aku..

ditemani kesayangan-kesayanganku..

dengan bermacam-macam 

pael dan kerenah masing-masing.. ;)

They are a lifetime of shared 

experiences and memories.

They have a  lot of laughter,

secrets,honesty,fights,

talking, advice,& dreams.

Alhamdullilah.

Salam..
hye awak , awak 
dan awak semua !
Good Morning Malaysia .
Good Night London .


Alhamdullilah syukur ke hadrat ilahi..
Aku masih diberi peluang untuk bernafas lagi..
Now jam menunjukkan pukul 1.35am waktu london..


Aku baru je bangun dr lena..
Hari ni aku tdo 3jam je..
hari-hari macam ni..
tak taula ikut zone mana..
Entah kenapa ada je yg menggu fikiran..


Ada macam-macam yang aku nak luah kan
tapi semuanya stuck dalam kepala..
tak mampu aku nak luahkan..
Apapun yg berlaku..
Aku redha..
dan aku harap aku mampu 
menghadapi semua ni
dengan tenang dan tabah..
Aku yakin Allah swt tu 
takkan mempersia-sia kan 
hambanya yg sabar..
dan aku anggap semuanya 
adalah kafarah dosa-dosa aku yang silam..
Wallahualam..

Menanti di Barzakh

Ku Merintih, Aku Menangis,
Ku Meratap, Aku Mengharap,
Ku Meminta Dihidupkan Semula,
Agar Dapat Kembali Ke Dunia Nyata,

Perjalanan Rohku,
Melengkapi Sebuah Kembara,
Singgah Di Rahim Bonda,
Sebelum Menjejak Ke Dunia,
Menanti Di Barzakh,
Sebelum Berangkat Ke Mahsyar,
Diperhitung Amalan,
Penentu Syurga Atau Sebaliknya,

Tanah Yang Basah Berwarna Merah,
Semerah Mawar Dan Jugak Rindu,
7 Langkah Pun Baru Berlalu,
Susai Talkin Penanda Syahdu,
Tenang Dan Damai Di Pusaraku,
Nisan Batu Menjadi Tugu,
Namun Tak Siapa Pun Tahu Resah Penantianku,

Terbangkitnya Aku Dari Sebuah Kematian,
Seakan Ku Dengari,
Tangis Mereka Yang Ku Tinggalkan,
Kehidupan Disini Bukan Suatu Khayalan
Tetapi Ia Sebenar Kejadian

Kembali Oh Kembli,
Kembalilah Kedalam Diri,
Sendirian Sendiri,
Sendiri Bertemankan Sepi,
Hanya Kain Putih Yang Membaluti Tubuhku,
Terbujur Dan Kaku,
Jasad Terbujur Didalam Keranda Kayu,

Ajal Yang Datang Dibuka Pintu ,
Tiada Siapa Yang Memberi Tahu,
Tiada Siapa Pun Dapat Hindari,
Tiada Siapa Yang Terkecuali,
Lemah Jemari Nafas Terhenti,
Tidak Tergambar Sakitnya Mati,
Cukup sekali Jasadku Untuk Mengulangi,

Jantung Berdenyut Kencang,
Menantikan Malaikat Datang,
Mengigil Ketakutan Gelap Pekat Dipandangan,
Selama Ini Diceritakan
Kini Aku Merasakan
Dialam Barzakh Jasad Dikebumikan

Ku Merintih, Aku Menangis,
Ku Meratap, Aku Mengharap,
Ku Meminta Dihidupkan Semula,
Agar Dapat Kembali Ke Dunia Nyata,

Upset .

Bosan tau tak ? 

Bosan sangat .

lebih-lebih kalau 

tunggu macam orang bodoh

last-last sakit hati .

Lepas ni tak payah dah cari ke apa .

Hidup mati saya pon tak payah kisah dah .

Selama saya ada takde orang nak hargai

Bila saya dah hilang dr muka bumi

baru  awak tau lah rasanya .

Masa tu dah tak berguna lagi .

Saya penat .

Saya cuba faham keadaan semua org .

tapi saya dah tak larat .

saya nak rehat puas-puas .

saya dah taknak fikir apa-apa .

saya taknak amik peduli apa-apa lagi .

Silent Mode start now .

Thank you .

give up .

Suka pun Salah .
tak suka pun Salah .
Terus terang pon salah .
Pendam pon salah .
Bila orang dah sayang sia-siakan .
Bila org tak sayang kata takde sape nak sayang .


Semuanya serba serbi tak kena .
Tak tau nak act macamana .
letih sangat .
Serius Saya give up.


Hope semua orang bahagia.
Bersama insan tersayang ..
Biarkanlah aku sendirian .
Agar aku tak menyusahkan sesiapa.


LOST.
END.

tears .

At night as I lay my head
In my face another tear is shed
This usually puts me to sleep
And it’s a bad habit to keep.
But crying takes some of the burden away,
It keeps me balanced for the next day.

I would often recall my memories,
It was like being in the greatest of all dreams
No! Stop I say in my mind
Please just leave it all behind.
I try and I try to
But holding on makes it harder to do
Giving up hope is the only way
And another tear leaves my eyes away

The things I cry about are very simple
Much, much simpler than a red apple
But then again things are complex in their own way
And I never thought happiness could betray.

I keep telling myself that this is only a nightmare
That in the morning it would all be over
But even I can’t fool myself
I know this is life
Most days, it’s like being stabbed by a knife.

Parts of me are already missing
I could no longer dance or sing
Memories again keep flashing in my head
I try to pretend
But no, I still can’t
It was like only yesterday, I was happy, content
But now I’m sad beyond the end

Now my face is absolutely drowning
Of tears that I’ll always regret
And things I’ll never forget.
Oh! How I miss my old me
But that is gone, missing it may be

No matter the night is almost over
And there is another day to suffer
Keeping this up I might be insane
But tomorrow night another tear will be shed again.

tears .

At night as I lay my head
In my face another tear is shed
This usually puts me to sleep
And it’s a bad habit to keep.
But crying takes some of the burden away,
It keeps me balanced for the next day.

I would often recall my memories,
It was like being in the greatest of all dreams
No! Stop I say in my mind
Please just leave it all behind.
I try and I try to
But holding on makes it harder to do
Giving up hope is the only way
And another tear leaves my eyes away

The things I cry about are very simple
Much, much simpler than a red apple
But then again things are complex in their own way
And I never thought happiness could betray.

I keep telling myself that this is only a nightmare
That in the morning it would all be over
But even I can’t fool myself
I know this is life
Most days, it’s like being stabbed by a knife.

Parts of me are already missing
I could no longer dance or sing
Memories again keep flashing in my head
I try to pretend
But no, I still can’t
It was like only yesterday, I was happy, content
But now I’m sad beyond the end

Now my face is absolutely drowning
Of tears that I’ll always regret
And things I’ll never forget.
Oh! How I miss my old me
But that is gone, missing it may be

No matter the night is almost over
And there is another day to suffer
Keeping this up I might be insane
But tomorrow night another tear will be shed again.

If you were here ..

Since you have left
There are many things
That I wish I had said.
If only you were here
So I could tell you now.

The first thing I would say
Is that I love you
Also that i miss you
Every single day.

There are many times I wonder
What would you be like
If only you were here.

There are thousands of questions i would ask
Some of life and death.
The most important would be
If you were here
Would my tears fade away?

Surrender That's it. I have had enough. I won't struggle anymore. I am surrendering. It's not brave to give up the fight but I am surrendering. Why should you struggle when you could just surrender and enjoy pain?

The wind, howling at the window,
Cold, unfeeling leaves that follow.
Lighting flashes across the sky,
In chorus with my defeated sigh.
Hearing thunder nearby,
The gods above anguish cries.
The sky is filled with flashes,
Like a whip creating a thousand slashes.

I had struggled,
My helpless cries are muffled.
You told me to try again,
Saying it's the advice from a friend.
They urge us on,
Like painfully stinging thorns.
I am at my wits end,
Already done all that I can.
Tried everything and every word,
I fell like a flightless bird.

The dawn approaches,
Come the teacher that coaches.
He taught me to live,
He taught me to weep.
Then he fades away,
Leaving in the trees that sway,
I am now without guidance,
Fading with insignificance.

I am now an unfeeling shell,
Others' deaths I never dwell.
I mourn after my innocence,
Lost in my own remembrance.
Words are thoughtless,
They are forever meaningless.
So I surrender to reason,
Looking in the sea for a final beacon.
Death is the only escape,
As he approaches under a cape.

Sort !!! Happy Birthday's Girl.

38 MINUTES UNTIL ..

EIGHT FEBRUARY

TWO THOUSAND ELEVEN

Wishing you happiness today 

and to remind you too, 

you make the world a nicer 

place just by being you ! 

May the years continue 

to be good to you. 

AMEEN

Happy Birthday Soraya! 

in between.

Salam readers ,


lama dah tak update blog ni..
agak kebuzy sikit 2-3 hari ni..
taknak tanya ke buzy apa?


hehehe..
Buzy skype gossip je pon..
with sayang n baby darls
muahhahaha..


lately ni cuaca pon 
dah mula panas..
angin spring dah nak sampai :)
tak sabar nak tengok bunga2 
berkembang..




dan paling tak sabar sekali...
nak balik malaysiaaaaaa
hooorayyyyyyyyyyyy...
31st march..
i'm going back to malaysia..


tak sabar nak jumpa smorg..


tapi..
sedih plak nak tinggalkan honey
sensorang kat sini..


Selalu je rasa macam ni...

Bonda .

I will return oh mother
And kiss your chaste head
And supress blame my desires
And taste the scent 
of your blessings
Besmirch in the
richness of your feet
my cheek when I meet you
Water the soil with my tears
Happy that you are alive


How many nights did
 you stay up late
So that I could 
sleep to my content?
And how many times 
did you thirst
So you could quench 
my thirst with your tenderness?
And one day I was ill, 
I do not forget
The tears from you 
that were like the rain
And your eyes which
 stayed awake
fearing that I may 
be in danger
And the day we parted at dawn
and Oh what a harsh 
dawn that was
Words cannot explain what
I felt when I abandoned you
And you told me things 
which I still
remember throughout my life
"You will never find a heart
more tender towards 
you than mine"
"You will never find a heart
more tender towards
 you than mine"


obedience to you, 
oh want of my life..
[is what] the God of existence 
has instructed me to do.
Your content is the 
secret of my success
And my love of you
is the secret of my beleif
And the sincerety of 
your prayer [for me]..
has resolved my misfortunes 
and my sadness
My love towards you..
no human being loves anything like it
You are the beating of my heart
And you are what lights my vision
And you are the tune on my lips
My problems cease when
 I see your face
To you I do return 
oh mother
Tomorrow I rest
 from my journey
And a second age will
begin for me
and the branches will 
blossom with flowers

Iefiz !! Happy Birthday's !!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY'S IEFIZ!!!!!

THE MOST KECOH....

FRIEND OF MINE...

Birthdays are like old wine, 

you get better with time :-)

Penat..

OMG !!!!

Penatnya...

but..

Akhirnya..

Saya dah siap mengEDIT blog ini..

dan..

Saya sangat Suka...

Wherever you are..

Time has come, what's done is done

It's time to move on

To another place, another space, 

maybe circling some other sun

Don't ask why, don't ask how

I still can't explain

To say goodbye, goodbye for now till I see you again

In the sunlight that's where I'll be

In the moon night close your eyes, you will see me

In the sunrise in the twilight

I'll be the morning and the evening star

I will be there with you wherever you are

Life is strange, such joy and pain

The betrayal and the kiss

It maybe meant to be, maybe destiny

Leads us down a path like this

Child is born, true love is sworn

All the in-between

Well you walk on, walk on until the path is gone

Learning love is the only everything

So it's goodnight, things go wrong

but it's alright

We're all just passin' through here

At the speed of light

It's not Goodbye !

And what if I never kiss your lips again 

Or feel the touch of your sweet embrace 

How would I ever go on 

Without you there's no place to belong 

Well someday love is gonna lead you back to me 

But 'til it does I'll have an empty heart 

So I'll just have to believe 

Somewhere out there you thinking of me 

Until the day I'll let you go 

Until we say our next hello 

It's not goodbye 

'Til I see you again 

I'll be right here rememberin' when 

And if time is on our side 

There will be no tears to cry 

On down the road 

There is one thing I can't deny 

It's not goodbye 

You'd think I'd be strong enough to make it through 

And rise above when the rain falls down 

But it's so hard to be strong 

When you've been missin' somebody so long 

It's just a matter of time I'm sure 

But time takes time and I can't hold on 

So won't you try as hard as you can 

To put my broken heart together again 

Until the day I'll let you go 

Until we say our next hello 

It's not goodbye 

'Til I see you again 

I'll be right here rememberin' when 

And if time is on our side 

There will be no tears to cry 

On down the road 

There is one thing I can't deny 

It's not goodbye